One of the first (and usually embarrassing) lessons we learned during our four years of living in England was the absolute truth of the statement that “England and America are two countries divided by a common language.” All of us North Americans made gaffes. No matter how astute we thought ourselves, there were always stumbles. … Continued
- I do not in any way blame God for my broken situation. In fact, God is broken over my sickness as much as I am. God would not want this for me or any of his children.
- God knows something is wrong with my body. God has all power, but I am not one of those who expects God to move heaven and earth to do something about it. I am extremely content to have God’s constant presence and love.
- I don’t believe God made me sick for some greater purpose. Of course, God will be able to use it for something. God is the great scrambler because God is smarter than all the rest of us put together and he can do stuff you wouldn’t believe. But God doesn’t cause sickness, tragedy, and trouble.
- I am sick because the world is a messed up place. All kinds of decisions we have made through the millennia have made us subject to all kinds of issues. My sickness may have been caused by some kind of exposure to industrial stuff that would be impossible to reconstruct at this point. Or maybe some genetic mixup or something down through the generations. Not God’s fault. He’s fixing things up and his kingdom will come fully when the time is right.
- I have a surprisingly calm sense about me. There is a chance I could die from this before long, but there is also a chance that I’ll feel better and be more or less back to normal in a few months. I’m leaving it in God’s hands, not in the sense of abandoning hope, but it trusting God that he is leading us to the right doctors and treatments, etc.
- Trusting God in this does not (for me) mean trusting for some kind of miracle. Miracles happen, but they are pretty rare or they wouldn’t be miracles. I trust God to be my God and my friend, just like he promised. God has the big picture in mind and I’m just a little cog. My trust in God is not about what I can receive from God but instead, it’s about me being faithful to God and God being faithful to me. This is exactly what I’m experiencing.
- I love the support of my friends. They are the hands of Jesus. It’s hard for me to accept help, but I appreciate it.
- I’m expecting to come out of this ok. I have some plans for the future. I haven’t given up.